I finally realised it today, I finally saw movies for what they are… The opportunity to rub our noses in the fantasy we want consciously or sub consciously for our selves.
Take the Inbetweeners Movie for example… Heres the plot.
SPOILER ALERT>>> STOP READING NOW IF YOUR ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO HATE KNOWING WHAT HAPPENS BEFORE IT DOES>>>>
Four Friends Each with a different insecurity.. aged around 19 to 21 go away on holiday to drink and have sex. Each have relatively no experience with women. By the middle of the movie even if you havent seen the tv series that came before this you’re praying for something to go their way. By the end of the movie.. if your anything like me you’re going to be wishing you was one of the four male leads.
The film uses four guys to talk to all of our own insecurities, blows them out of proportion and make me feel worse.
Great… It’s all good… But now the movies finished I find myself sitting here wondering why I’m single….
And I was doing so well burying my neurosis under keeping busy by working.
The brief was to show my creativity… I blew it… But figured i’d leave my notes on show.
So… Here i am again…. More Prepared…. More Focused… Unfiltered … and not taking no for an answer…
Mixcloud mix Last time i was here i showed a mix from an old gig, this was something i felt i brushed over too briefly. this time i’d like to elaborate on a point i was trying to make… Music inspires me to try to build something unexpected out of the over listened. things people have heard again and agin can be modified to create something completely new… or something completely unexpected. For example songs you wouldn’t always associate from the same genre can go together or hop boundary’s its all about the right timing and positioning.
1980’s influenced room design..
I spent a week working in a friends house after he asked me to help him move during that time we decided to re decorate the room he was moving into.. i came up with an idea to use his favorite era as a base for a room that he could enjoy.
He’s a huge 80’s fan so i decided to use the era as a base for all concepts… my research lead me here…
Ettore Sottsass organized a meeting with designers and formed a design collaborative named Memphis. The name was taken after the Bob Dylan song Stuck Inside of Mobile with the Memphis Blues Again which had been played repeatedly throughout the evening’s meeting.They drew inspiration from such movements as Art Deco and Pop Art including styles such as the 1950s Kitsch and futuristic themes.
The group produced and exhibited furniture and design objects, annually between 1981 to 1988. The result was a highly acclaimed debut at the 1981 Salone del Mobile of Milan, the world’s most prestigious furniture NEWY fair.
Sottsass left the movement in 1985 and it dismantled in 1988.
This and old 80’s film and TV shows is what i used to create a room he has GROWN to enjoy.
The idea to write this script was triggered by a mistake i made in applying to SCA. funnily enough the project ONE Day that you ran last year was what i was working towards and this triggered a whole cast of ideas that i could write. it started off as interactions from my own perspective and as i realised that the project was no longer running became more fleshed out into a black comedy for comic book fans and people with influences like Joss wedon and who grew up with 80’s cartoons. The script contains lots of references to internet memes and comic book and sci-fi jargon only people interested in these categorys would really get.
The idea is to film them as five min Shorts and up load them onto a youtube channel and build a following from there. Though it has to be said its more about building an idea than gaining fans and exposure.
I’ve always been told it’s rude to stop and stare. But we do it all the time.
Have you ever been to Westfield’s shopping centre? Or any other oversized super mall/shopping centre?
I have a theory.
So these places are built like giant adverts. Everything inside them is designed to look good. To feel good. To make your mind tell you something’s attractive or you need to have it. The lighting makes things glow. The floors walls and shop doors all look cool and fashionable, shiny and new. Even 90% of the staff in the shops looks great.
But the Effects are not just limited to the Staff, displays and ascetics. They transfer to the everyday people.
I took a walk through this abnormal area of mass disillusion and aw recently. My first trip to Westfield’s. I realised that in this place every 3rd woman was attractive. It was like the local area had created some sort of magnetic pull and women of all shapes and sizes were drawn to this building that offered dreams and lifestyles on credit and morphed them into more things you just have to have.
And more than once I caught myself stopping to stare.
I didn’t mean to be rude.
It’s very rare to see a woman i find attractive wearing a marvel T-shirt. I wonder if she knew geek was my kryptonite. Maybe it was the combination of that and tight jeans.
Mamihlapinatapai is a word from the Yaghan language of Tierra del Fuego, listed in The Guinness Book of World Records as the “most succinct word”, and is considered one of the hardest words to translate. It refers to “a look shared by two people, each wishing that the other will offer something that they both desire but are unwilling to suggest or offer themselves.”
You know that moment when you miss a chance to ask for their Number?
Well I do all too well.
Take today for example…
You’ve probably heard this story 1000 times before but let me tell you what happened.
I’m at work. Behind the till serving customers, It’s been a long day but i have a smile as usual and I’m not that cheesy guy but i know how to strike up a conversation.
Over she walks with a bottle of water and we get talking somehow the conversation turns to Germany. We brush over the areas we’ve even to and she used to live in Munich. We say a few words in German and then she tells me the weathers amazing over there. Now all day today in London it has been raining so i say “well let’s just go for the weekend.” she smiles and considers the idea. At that point I quickly change the subject and ask her for the money she has to pay.
Just before she leaves there is another pause. “Have a nice afternoon” i say and with that I’ve dismissed the opportunity and she leaves the shop.
As she’s walking away down the street i turn and look after her. She also turns and looks, smiles and waves…
I missed my moment……
Its times like these i wish women would just speak up if you’re interested. Your letting the nice guys pass you by.
Before i continue you should know I’ve been doing a lot of it. (Over thinking i mean)
I’ve passed through a period of slight depression and confusion and come out in a world of possibilities that lead me to overthink a lot more than i used to.
But let’s keep this simple… Intent.
It’s a mother F**ker. There is intent (good or bad) behind everything we do. At the base of all actions is the sole desire to gain something.
This really screws me up when it comes to flirting with women.
I work in an area that has some amazing looking women and i find myself wishing i could overcome that intent barrier.
Yes i want to get some of them into a bedroom and make them sweat, scream, moan and even black out in the throes of ecstasy but there’s more to it.
I want to find out if these women have more than stunning bodies and pretty faces. I want to know if we can talk for hours about geeky movies and which films they enjoyed more. I want to know how they cope in awkward situations and if they have any interests they are passionate about… i want to know if we can hang out and be challenged by each other’s perceptions and ideas. I want to argue, make up, live life and discover. and yes I want to fuck.
But at the back of my mind is that Bitch INTENT humming away telling me that her shields already up. Telling me she’s already thinking “he just wants to fuck, He’s going to hurt me, be prepared. Keep your guard up”
I didn’t run away… I didnt forget… There has been a lot going on…
So i got a job. Make that three. I find myself working away and building the life style i want. Things are moving along nicely. My calender is becoming fuller and my options more limited but its a nice feeling. I feel whole again. I no longer feel usless and i have gained a new perspective.
Its funny, We spend what feels like a huge amount time looking for meaningful relationships but an equal part sabotaging them. I’m not even talking about relationships. just basic friendships. because lets face it if we can sustain them what hope do we have of having real sexual relations.
That thought occurred to me today when coming home on the bus. I was thinking about the last time I actually enjoyed the company of a good friend.
Silly things tend to get between us like Money, Gossip and jealousy.
I really don’t want to sit here and preach but was it really worth end. I mean all that time you spent with them must have been for a reason. is it really something you can’t talk about and sort out.
You only really end up more alone and troubled without them.